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here we go.

29 Apr

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morning morning. here we are, another monday, another two weeks void of blogging (save for a few ardent eyes posts). we can only get better from here, right?

the last couple weeks have been a whirlwind for me. from ramping up some activities and letting others go to diving head first into the austin professional community, i feel i’m finally making strides on the ‘ol job hunt front. but while i’m feeling better and more comfortable with my approach, there’s still a lot to do (i.e. actually landing a job).

so without further ado, here’s what on the list for this week in an effort to continue full steam ahead on my progress:

– working on a really excited application today (requires ideas, suggestions, and lots-o-thought put into it)

– updating all my web pages with the new and improved résumé format

– reaching out to a long list of suggested contacts and companies

– laundry and grocery shopping

– and for a bit of fun, one of my good friends is coming in to austin this weekend, so lots of planning to be done.

what’s going on with you this week? can’t wait to make it another good one!

photo my own.

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from where i sit.

6 Feb

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so, it’s been a while since i’ve done one of these posts. i was considering doing away with them completely, yet here we are, giving it another go.

but this time, it’s a little different. i’ve long been a “part” of the ever expanding blogosphere. mostly quietly listening from the sidelines, soaking up all the insights, inspirations and ideas from industry boundary pushers. and i’ve long thought what direction i wanted to take my blog – should i write about fashion? should i post lots of pictures? should i be funny, solemn, quirky or cutesy? should i be doing this at all?

and many of these introspective questions remain unanswered.

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which leads me to a deeper reflection – a deeper look at my life in general and the many unanswered questions i have there, too.

maybe it’s the stage of life – 26 as of a couple weeks ago – or the unwavering pace  of things today – can we just take a sec to enjoy our coffee, or breathe a little? just one second? or maybe it’s the simple realization that i’m “growing up” and the pressures of “needing” to be moving toward a settled life are closing in at a more rapid pace than ever experienced before (ed note: and by “settled,” i most certainly don’t mean married, with kids and a white picket fence outside my gingham framed windows. i mean “settled” in the sense of having a sure direction and at least getting close to moving into what my life will look like for the distant future.).

maybe it’s all of these things. all of these things inflicting an incredible and often debilitating sense of lost i’ve never felt before.

coming out of college, i had it all figured out. i knew exactly how things were going to go. i got a degree in pr, so naturally, i would work in pr. in new york. in fashion.

naturally.

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and then it didn’t work out. pr, new york, nor fashion. none were a fit.

fuck. what the hell do i do now?

this was my plan. working and living in new york, doing the fashion pr thing, leading this incredibly challenging yet fulfilling life surrounded by equally over-the-top ambitious people. this was it. this was the dream.

but what if that wasn’t the dream? what if that wasn’t what i was supposed to do? do i have to come up with a new dream? do i keep parts of that dream and fill in the holes with other “dreams”?

where do i go from here?

and now here i am, two years later, asking the same questions. yet again.

and it isn’t any easier the second time around. i always knew coming back to austin wasn’t the solution. this was a temporary fix. some people are more than happy – thrilled, even – to make an impact on the area they grew up in. and that’s great. for them. but not for me. i need something more. something big. something different.

but what does that mean, look like, feel like?

i had an inkling the draw of new york would never leave me. and as the weeks that turned into months that turned into years drifted unimpressively by, the hold that great city has on me only grew. i never could quite shake it.

and now that i know new york is the place for me, i’m having more doubts than ever. what if i’m not good enough? what if i can’t make the switch from pr to branding? what if i’m not cut out for the work life it takes to make it in new york?

what happened to that fearless girl who was so sure of her direction? so sure of what the future held? so sure of what her life would look like? so sure of herself.

i’m scared that’s she’s not around anymore. i’m scared that she was chewed up and spit out and shaken so deeply to her core that she’s now so unsure of herself that she’s turned into a timid, passive girl – a girl she never, in her wildest dreams, thought she’d be. i’m scared that she’s not alive anymore. and maybe never will be again.

but surely that’s not the case? surely, that girl, who used to be so full of drive and held so dearly that need to “make it” in the one city that always felt like home that she would never be afraid to send that email, pick up that phone and make her dreams happen, isn’t gone. surely, she’s still here, buried deep inside, waiting to burst out, guns blazing, and holding that undying dream high above, for all to see.

surely.

so here’s to her. that girl. that girl that i once knew. that girl that i hope to know again.

here’s to keeping those dreams alive.

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all photos my own.

“during this journey, work towards what you love. try not to be tempted by jobs that won’t get you there.” -lauren sherman

25 Jan

preach it, lauren. taking this to heart, for sure. let’s do this, job search.

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here we go.

12 Nov

this week is a different kind of week. the kind that marks the beginning of endless possibilities, countless options and an array of inspiring dreams to take on.

with mixed emotions, i said goodbye to the texas exes last week, my home for nearly the past two years, and said hello to the start of my next chapter. while exciting and unbelievably inspiring, i meet this new life with a hint of trepidation – will it work out? will i find my calling? will i make the move again to the one city that truly feels like home? it’s these unanswered questions – the fear of the unknown, really – that has me the slightest bit nervous.

but those nerves will not outweigh the exhilaration this new unknown has me feeling. i’ve been keeping my eye on lots of inspiring quotes lately, and the ones that resonate the most are those reminding me that without risk, which yes, is scary and hard to swallow, you can’t move forward and accomplish bigger and better things. so here’s to you, risk. onward and upward.

it’s go time.

all photos my own.

things i need to remember

22 Jan

One of my New Year’s resolutions last year was to shape up at work – i.e. not to be afraid of making mistakes/get stuck ‘cause I don’t know the answer; don’t let the perfect be an enemy of the good; keep moving forward; etc.

And while I remembered and put these things into practice, for the most part – yay! – it’s always good to be reminded of motivating words of advice. Especially when it comes to work, ‘cause you never know what surprises may be thrown your way.

photo compliments of Barkaw via wit + delight.